About fears and worlds falling into pieces
Hola, guys!
Well.. just a few days left to finish this year. This year was the best year that I've ever had, also I had some bad experiences so I guess it was a bittersweet year, but what is life with no bad times?.
After all that I've been through I should say.. that I learned a lot of things, I felt the pain of having a broken heart, I cried, I saw my world break into pieces, disappointments, etc, etc. But what can I do? Just sit and relax while my world crumbles..(NO), I know I'm not the bravest person alive and most of the time I have to do some things wrong to start doing them right, but I'm a good girl, at the end I'm always looking for peace..
Just a few months ago I still believed in fairy tales, but (haha me and my buts) someone made me realize that there is a real world, that is not always true that every love story has a happy ending, that love is a little bit more complicated even when we are the ones who made it so complicated, little by little I've been opening my eyes to my reality (yeah, I was dreaming for so long).
These days have been really hard, I thought that I would never get over it, but the same special person who woke me up from my dreams.. was the same who told me the words that I didn't want to hear and those words changed the way I was looking my own world..(the only person who got power over me).. the thing is that is not about make someone else happy, is about make yourself happy and maybe you have to lose something in the process, but it will be totally worth it, but the road is not gonna be easy, you're gonna get hurt, you're gonna cry, you're gonna get angry and most of the time you're gonna feel kinda lost, but as I said before it will be totally worth it.
My secret is that I have fears, but I never knew how big and strong they were as much as I do now.. I have lost the MOST important person in my life thanks to my fears (some opportunities too), but now I understand, I understand a lot of things that I couldn't understand before because I was blinded by the pain I was feeling..(a shame that I had to go over through all of this to learn the lesson). Even when you know that this person you have lost is not coming back to you, don't panic because man speaks but God is the only one who decides the end, now you're feeling angry, sad, lost, hopeless.. I know, but "disappoint someone doesn't make you a bad person or a waste of time", people are not perfect and is not wrong to make a mistake, who makes you feel that way maybe doesn't deserve your tears or what you can do for him/her.
I know everything will be fine when the time's right.. its time to turn my fears in something I can really use to be happy..
Mmm, well.. in a moment of anxiety I asked God for two things and I think he gave me one of those things I asked for (He's still working on it anyways, I am working on it)..
See you next time guys..
Nashy
Recommended Song:
Some Nights - Fun ♪♫
Well.. just a few days left to finish this year. This year was the best year that I've ever had, also I had some bad experiences so I guess it was a bittersweet year, but what is life with no bad times?.
After all that I've been through I should say.. that I learned a lot of things, I felt the pain of having a broken heart, I cried, I saw my world break into pieces, disappointments, etc, etc. But what can I do? Just sit and relax while my world crumbles..(NO), I know I'm not the bravest person alive and most of the time I have to do some things wrong to start doing them right, but I'm a good girl, at the end I'm always looking for peace..
Just a few months ago I still believed in fairy tales, but (haha me and my buts) someone made me realize that there is a real world, that is not always true that every love story has a happy ending, that love is a little bit more complicated even when we are the ones who made it so complicated, little by little I've been opening my eyes to my reality (yeah, I was dreaming for so long).
These days have been really hard, I thought that I would never get over it, but the same special person who woke me up from my dreams.. was the same who told me the words that I didn't want to hear and those words changed the way I was looking my own world..(the only person who got power over me).. the thing is that is not about make someone else happy, is about make yourself happy and maybe you have to lose something in the process, but it will be totally worth it, but the road is not gonna be easy, you're gonna get hurt, you're gonna cry, you're gonna get angry and most of the time you're gonna feel kinda lost, but as I said before it will be totally worth it.
My secret is that I have fears, but I never knew how big and strong they were as much as I do now.. I have lost the MOST important person in my life thanks to my fears (some opportunities too), but now I understand, I understand a lot of things that I couldn't understand before because I was blinded by the pain I was feeling..(a shame that I had to go over through all of this to learn the lesson). Even when you know that this person you have lost is not coming back to you, don't panic because man speaks but God is the only one who decides the end, now you're feeling angry, sad, lost, hopeless.. I know, but "disappoint someone doesn't make you a bad person or a waste of time", people are not perfect and is not wrong to make a mistake, who makes you feel that way maybe doesn't deserve your tears or what you can do for him/her.
I know everything will be fine when the time's right.. its time to turn my fears in something I can really use to be happy..
Mmm, well.. in a moment of anxiety I asked God for two things and I think he gave me one of those things I asked for (He's still working on it anyways, I am working on it)..
See you next time guys..
Nashy
Recommended Song:
Some Nights - Fun ♪♫
"Forever mine, forever yours"
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